August 26, 2017 9:44pm
I ran a race tonight. Strangely enough it was 13 months to the day since I lost my husband but that wasn’t what I focused on. Instead I noticed the beauty of my adopted hometown, the common cause, the community, the love. The course snaked through my college, the place where I met my husband but only happy memories greeted me. It was a race of conversation, of happiness and not worrying about time. It was about the beauty of small moments, hope for the future, kind cheers and hellos from so many people I care about.
I’ve run a race this month. We are back to school- a new position for me, 8th grade for my daughter and daycare for my son. We are getting back in the swing of schedules, homework, early morning mad dashes and evening exhaustion. Life is again pushed by the synchronization of schedules, meals, chores and the packing of bags. The hectic pace of happy, busy kids and a single mom who can actually perform under pressure with a tiny bit of grace.
I ran a race this summer. It was a race of becoming “normal” again, of finding my voice and spreading my wings. A race of loving my kids even more than I thought I ever could because my head was finally clear and my heart was wide open. A race of taking chances and finding out that God continues to fulfill his promises and bless me in ways I never imagined.
I ran a race this past year. A race of unimaginable heartbreak, of horrid fog and a million stumbles. A race that involved months of treading water and gasping for air. A race of learning, pain and a renaissance where I saw that deep inside, Heather was still there and she had something to offer the world.
As I sit on my back swing and stare at evening sky, I am overwhelmed once again by God’s beauty and healing. We can never know what the future holds- what our race may look like. We can only continue moving forward with our eyes focused on the many blessings around us. Thank you God for all my races- they’ve made me better.
…let us run with endurance the race that is set before us. Hebrews 12:1